Lightning storms....

In trying to live a better life, trying to be a better person, finding the light & shining your own.... there are GOING to be times when you just CANNOT control your emotions. The human factor comes out & you have to try to remain objective, clear headed & calm. Its so hard though, we are all human & we stumble as we are learning. I have told myself that as long as I can see what I am doing & recognize things that i do that may not be good, I have the ability to change my future behavior through 'cognizant conditioning'

I will NEVER proclaim to be an expert, I will never pretend to be perfect, I will never profess to have all the answers BUT I will practice in order to to improve but i will probably whilst learning, persecute those who I feel are dragging me or anyone I love down.

I am willing to give every person a chance & an opportunity to lift themselves from where they may have fallen. We ALL FALL at some stage, whether it be through our own doing, choices we may have made, continue to make or whether it be something we have inherited from our predecessors. Its a part of the perfect journey of life designed to test and stretch you. We ALL however have the power within us to change where we are going & make improvements to enable us to get there. The VICTIM card CANNOT be played multiple times! My patience runs thin with emotionally lazy people, people who JUST do not make enough of an effort to make a change. When you are stuck in a rut & you cannot lift yourself due to your health, I can understand. When you have & are given multiple opportunities, assistance & support and you still have the shortsightedness to bite the hand that feeds, helps lift/ support you or provides you with an umbrella in the rain, what kind of a person does that make you? Negativity breeds negativity & when you are already in what you deem to be a negative situation, do you think those negative words spewed forth out of anger or contempt will aid you? NO, it only helps build a darker cloud above your own head that continues to follow you around.

As with every thunder storm, the build up starts with HOT air on the ground. The HOT air may be the anger or aggression coming from that person feeling cheated or done in by life, by situations, by choices they may have made, further aggravated by other peoples 'luck' as they may call it. That hot air rises to form what is called 'updrafts' which rise up, cooling rapidly to form thunderheads. Through a combination of positive & negative charges, lightning is created. It is like a huge release of electricity. That charge is dangerous & may bring harm.

This little thunderstorm could be destructive & may be exhausting to clean up after if it causes harm/ damage. Why on earth would people want to consistently get caught in a little lightning & thunder storm!? I most certainly don't.... NOT when I myself am trying so hard to control my own demons to share light rather than steal light.

Maybe God wants there to be that thunderstorm. Maybe it is his way of taking you to the edge so that you are able to come & look for shelter in him & though him. Maybe its his way of drawing you closer to him. I have often found that in my weakest moment, I can find shelter & solace in my maker & he gets me though. NOT without me humbling myself & NOT without me realizing that some of where I find myself is my own doing.

My heart says that the persecution of people that I deem to be weak and are NOT lifting themselves is wrong? How do I deal with people who are not willing to try as hard as I may try to improve.... maybe they are trying but just cannot get to where they need to be? How does one therefore overcome these obstacles & maybe offer some kind of assistance to those unable to resolve & dissolve that hot air that eventually will cause that lightning or thunderstorm?
In my own capacity I need to learn to speak up. To speak my mind even when the other person may not like what I have to say. To offer an observation maybe that may assist. not a criticism but an observation towards a greater good. To say something that may speak to an inner child that has been stifled by an occurrence that may have left that child broken and unable to further develop or improve or grow.

I have always felt that I have the ability to help people see the bigger picture, maybe I am NOT doing that actively enough. Is it driven by the fear that I may expose a vulnerability that could be deemed as a weakness? Is it because I am selfish & have so much of my own issues to resolve & do not want to share my time with just anyone? I have never been a shrinking violet, especially even when it come down to exposing my own faults in the hope of growth....

I have a lot of work to do on this aspect of my inner mapping. Any & all comments & advice is welcome. In helping me to reach resolution... you may help more than one person. This is all a part of the journey... and oh what a journey this is.

Much love
Lynne