New Beginnings...

Not all of us are born with answers. In fact, many of us are confused once we hit the stage where we can actually start questioning the ways of the world, where we are headed & how we will get there. Bombarded by the worlds constant noise, some of us become unable to process, recognize & consciously participate to be able to grow.

Often I read self help guru's & motivational speakers blogs & I WISH that I had the answers. My thoughts are that they seem to have it all perfected with regards to staying positive, motivating themselves & everyone around them, clearing away the debris of negatives to see only the bits that will serve them & focus on those rather than getting caught up in trying to process everything that has happened in their lives.

They make it seem so easy! & while I am sure that getting to that point may come easily for some people, for others (like me) it may be more of a journey?

I am constantly questioning myself, questioning whether my thought patterns are healthy, whether they serve me, whether they serve other people, whether they are growing me & grounding me or getting me down. It's so hard!

I talk to God, all the time. While I am driving, when I am sitting outside absorbing the sun, when I am in the traffic en route home, when I see a butterfly fluttering about in the most obscure places like at the top of a tall building in the concrete jungle that is the Greenpoint media Quarter where my offices are situated. I talk to God in the silence of my mind.... I question him and I thank him. I ask him if I have done good today. I question whether he is proud of where I am headed or if I have made mistakes. I don't always hear him talking back to me? I listen carefully, but I don't always hear a reply & this makes me really sad.

I wish that it was easier... to be connected. To know the answers. I wish that the path was well lit & that it wasn't about 'finding the light' but that the light actually found you. Maybe it does.... find you. Maybe it actually searches you out & when you are ready, reveals itself to you. Maybe in that moment, if you are lucky enough to be present & conscious, you see it. That light.

And then you start your journey? Maybe the journey starts long before you even realise you are on the path? Maybe you are actually always on the path and just stepping momentarily onto and off it as you sometimes meander and sometimes stumble along?

I DO KNOW for sure that all of us are on a journey. We all have a mission and a purpose and a task to fulfill. Every single one. From the youngest to the eldest....

Now the scary question is: Do some people never realise that they are part of a bigger picture, part of a master plan? Is it possible to go through your life and never find your true meaning and purpose? Possibly? I don't know. But what I do know is that you need to search it out. Listen to your inner child, listen to your heart, hear the voice inside your head calling gently to direct you. This could be God's voice. I believe it is.

Once you have had the first 'awakened' experience, you have already started to walk the path towards your destiny, you are on your way & you need to embrace the new beginnings that are a part of this journey. Finding the power within yourself, nurturing & harnessing that power & beauty is the beginning of the transformation. You have the power within you, you may not realize it at the beginning, you may not have the answers and you may not be entirely sure about the road to travel, the words to say or the outcome but trust that the answers are within you.

It is your journey, you are on it for a reason.

I will not be afraid to walk the road that I am destined to walk, I will embrace it & walk it bravely because I trust that it is where I am meant to go.

I may not have all the answers BUT I will discover them en route & I will share the journey with you.....

You are not alone..... & neither am I.